too many projects

2026-01-25T16:17:58Z

Currently reading: "East of Eden" by John Steinbeck & a few other books
Currently watching: "We Bare Bears"

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I'm sure I am not the only one who knows too well the feeling of reading through that huge list of projects, one that I continue to add to weekly (if not daily), and feel excitedly overwhelmed. These are not "have to do" projects, but moreso "want to do" projects. Truly, I know its about the process of creating these projects, rather than checking off a list, but I often feel overwhelmed where to start on some of the bigger projects.

It feels as if there is not enough time in the day for everything I wish to do, and sometimes I find myself too tired to work on any of my projects by the evening. I have recently found that breaking each and every project down into a smaller list of achievable steps seems to help greatly. Rather than staring blankly at the words, "write a novel," I can easily check off, "brainstorm novel." I'm sure this is probably common sense for most, but it is a great revelation for me.

Hobbies aside, we are getting a massive snowstorm today. They are predicting over a foot of snow & the radar shows half of the country covered by this storm. We've only got a few inches so far, but my dog loved playing in it this morning, wearing his bright orange blanket to keep him warm.

I really ought to write in this blog/journal more often, it's quite therapeutic. For the last few years, I have made "digital diaries" or basically vlogs that no one ever sees but me. I don't post them anywhere or show them to anyone. I always found I could be more productive if I made it into a vlog, however most of my vlogs never seemed to make it past the editing stage. Lately, I've been reflecting on whether I actually enjoy making & editing the vlogs, or if I just enjoy explaining my projects to someone without worrying about talking their ear off. I'm still not sure. I do love to film my vlogs, but editing is where I begin to overthink it. I was thinking of trying to write more about my projects on here, rather than making a video, to see if I enjoy that more. I also wonder if I simplify my editing, rather than trying something new each time, perhaps I will enjoy that stage of the project more.

That's all for now, bye!

Sincerely,
Duh-lana

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morning reflections

2025-12-02T13:03:28Z

Currently reading: "Cat's Eye" by Margaret Atwood
Currently watching: "Desperate Housewives"

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Hello, welcome to my journal, where I babble about mysterious things for an alarming amount of time! :)

I'm not typically a morning person, but I love mornings. Having my coffee in a silent house while the sun always seems to be shining just right, in a nostalgic way that reminds me of Sunday mornings as a child. It is winter now, so I don't have to get up as early to catch the morning golden hour, but even the peacefulness of the dark is nice. I feel more motivated in the morning, why am I not a morning person? I wonder if it's possible to change.

I wish I had a defined writing style. It feels as if it changes every time I write, usually because I've been influenced by the last author I read & loved (Margaret Atwood rn). I hope I can define a style with more practice, but I often find it hard to practice writing despite my love for it.

I think I am finally starting to come out of long creative burn out and the amount of project ideas I have now are insane. I love it, though! For months, it felt like I had zero interest and zero ideas, but now I have lists and lists full of ideas! I've actually been getting around to working on some of them, rather than letting them sit in my Notions app like invisible little prisoners.

I apologize if this journal feels like its going in many different directions, I was struggling to start writing it, so I decided to just start. I find this new philosophy has been helping so much lately. I am an over-planner and an over-thinker, so the best remedy is usually to just start. I can always correct or edit it later, but for now, I just need to start the project. I think I just need the momentum sometimes.

I never thought I would learn to code or enjoy it, but this website is what fueled the interest. Now it's one of my favorite hobbies (though I'm still very new at it)! This website feels like a collection of everything I love or am interested in. I enjoy how it feels like it's my own personal space, I can post whatever I want here. On sites like Instagram, it feels so structured and everyone posts similarly. I think people on Neocities are much kinder lol. I'm not a big fan of social media, it gets so toxic in some areas. I occasionally watch Youtube or use Pinterest, but I try to keep it in moderation or else I find the anxious feeling coming back.

My keyboard is so loud and clicky, I feel like John-Boy Walton when he was typing on his loud typewriter and everyone kept telling him to go to sleep!😭

Lately, I have been thinking of how strange it is to realize, as you get older, that the older people in your life sometimes don't have it all figured out? I hope that made sense lol. I'm talking in terms of spirituality and life and death. Some people are in their retirement age and are still very afraid of these things. I have been fearful about it since I was a child, but with the help of therapy, I feel I've reached an acceptance. I wish we did not have to be afraid of things we can't control. If you're afraid of it, talk about it! It makes it less scary.

I hope that wasn't too much for a random blog entry loool. To steer it in a lighter direction, I'll tell you about my latest trip to the thrift store. My favorite thrift (Salvation Army) is roughly a 45 minute drive so I hardly go anymore. I used to go all the time when I was in high school. I really appreciate how they never change the layout of the store, so every time I go in after it's been awhile feels like seeing an old friend. I found the cutest tote bag (after wanting to find a tote bag for so many years but never getting around to ordering one, i can't explain how happy this makes me!!). Also, some good books: "East of Eden," "Much Ado About Nothing," a Southern Living Christmas edition from 1999. And I also got some soft long sleeve shirts I was desperately needing for the winter weather!

I think that's all I have to say for now (shockingly), so I'll end this before it ends up 3 miles long..

Sincerely,
Duh-lana

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